We'll talk about one of our favorite subjects: death. We have emphasized the good parts of leaping—the fun of new paradigms, and things getting easier and more pleasant. We have not talked enough about how parts of you have to die in the leap. We have talked about how we can easily jump you past old beliefs and patterns, but what it takes for you to truly be willing to let them go, and even to ask for this, is sometimes another matter. Because even if you have a pattern that doesn't serve you and it frustrates you, and you've been saying for years, "I really want to get past this," it's familiar. And it's probably habitual. It tends to be an old friend, because you have seen it as a part of your world, a part of who you are. We have learned to not take security blankets from children. And we've learned not to yank habits out of adults. There's usually too much of a backlash if we go too fast, or too abruptly.
Maybe "leap" is an unfortunate word. A leap implies a one-time chance where you either go the whole way in one jump, or you fall into an abyss. It sounds starker and scarier than it really needs to sound. For most of you, there will be a series of steps, of small leaps. And there isn't an abyss to fall into. It's not like you're going from cliff to cliff.
You're all familiar with the spiritual journey being a series of steps, and a series of deaths of who you were. What we can do is take you a little farther faster than you probably would have done on your own. By virtue of our trusting, close relationship, we can carry you. But we don't want to bring up your resistance by making it sound like everything has to change overnight. Although, it could. And for some people, it does totally change overnight.
Just as every cell in your body has its own consciousness, every atom is a conscious being. And every organ comprised of the atoms and the cells has its own consciousness, which is a conglomeration that encompasses all the other little consciousnesses, but it has it's own pattern overlaying those. The human body as a whole has its own consciousness. And your family tree has certain threads of consciousness through your whole genetic outlay.
You are also on a psychological level composed of layers similarly. You're composed of many sub-personalities. Some of them are little delightful neuroses that are so unique. Some are what you'd call character traits. Others are habitual thoughts. And especially with addictions, some have such substance that even after a person's death they live on, and people think they're ghosts because they're so well-developed. All the personality traits that support the craving, the denial, and the compensating for an addiction—that whole mass of personality is like an organism, just like your heart is composed of many cells and functions, but it's an organism.
When we talk about leaping you to a huge change, we've told you that we can help with physical symptoms and leap you past those. And you're aware that usually physical symptoms are connected with patterns of a psychological, emotional, or spiritual nature. In most of the characteristics of the leap you're asking for, there are going to be parts of you, especially on a psychological level, that will have to be dissolved. These parts of you are like entities. They have their own point of view, their own beingness, their own life. We'd like to push you to see that there is no such thing as a selfhood, as most Westerners tend to think. "I'm studying myself and improving myself." You are a conglomeration, including a conglomeration of all the relationships you have—all the devas of relationship. Relationships are beings too. They're forms of consciousness with their own point of view.
Cathee was surprised way back when she and Peter were deciding whether to stay together at one point. The channeling around that time was interesting, because the deva of their relationship wanted its existence to continue. It was lobbying for Cathee and Peter to stay together no matter what. Because if they had moved away and lost touch with each other, the deva of their relationship would lose energy from lack of attention, and would start to fade into oblivion.
So there are many parts to a human being, when you factor in even all the relationships you have, and how they are beings that also want to live and continue. There are very few beings in the universe, especially on the psychological level, who do not want to continue their existence. We know people get depressed and can be suicidal. But often in that is a very strong sub-personality of depression that wants to continue living, so the depression wants to continue the suicidal thoughts. These become a pattern, and they have almost a life of their own. So when we hear of someone wanting to kill themself, often that person is not coming from a rational, even, calm decision like we're hoping that you'll come to with the leap. Basically the feeling tone we feel here is a clear seeing that you're stuck in the wrong parallel, and that you would prefer to be in one which suits you better. That's very different than someone who's caught in the whole emotional swing of being suicidal, and is attached to the drama of the suicidal thoughts. If that person does take their own life, it should cause the death of the subpersonality of the suicidal tendency. However, often such subpersonalities are strong enough to live on past a person's death and conglomerate on someone else who is resonating that way themselves. Then you get a massive building up of entities that reinforce those suicidal thoughts, and make it very hard for that person to let those thoughts die or fade, or step back from them, or clear them.
It's a marvel, actually, that there is a part of you that is within and yet beyond all the tendencies and patterns that you have. What is the part that can choose, "I will no longer support my own suicidal thoughts. I will no longer identify with them as being who I am." It's quite amazing that anybody can get beyond who they have been. Growth is a very natural thing, but it's also kind of an amazing thing, because the old you is dying for the new you to come. You're shedding cells all the time, and new cells are being born all the time. And so growth is a death process as well as a rebirth process.
Tonight we'll define love as a spacious field that accepts everything that's going on, so that things that are dying can die in that energy with a compassionate acceptance. Birth can be almost violent, to be thrust into existence, or into a more solidified form from a more subtle level. The love field is also accepting of things that are being born. We think there can be no growth without love. And there can be no leap without love, as well.
This is why it's good that you come together as a group and care about each other. We're concerned that people who don't really have friends will get ahold of these channelings, and get into the leap without having the loving support of fellow humans who are also doing it. This would not be a good thing. Don't leap if you don't have a real feeling of at least our love. But preferably leap only if you have loving friends who are there to hold the space for you to make a radical change, so that you know even if you're hardly recognizable because you've leapt so far, you'll still be loved. There will be people who will greet you there, accepting the new you, because their love is unconditional.
We feel that those we're speaking to in this immediate group all have loving relationships in your life that are supportive of growth. You have people who understand that even though they may be hooked into your particular neuroses with their own, they're still willing to let you drop yours even if it means theirs will be in their face once you do. We're jesting here, but there's something to that, not only with neuroses, but with different personality needs and traits. Especially with those people with whom you live or work, or who are around a lot, you learn to adjust to each other and compensate. One may be outgoing; the other may be a real introvert. And you learn to work with that. If the introvert suddenly becomes an extrovert, then you have two extroverts, and you may have to adjust.
Huge personality changes may need to happen in order for you to achieve your desired leap. For instance, Cathee is aware that she's saying she wants her work to get out to the world big, but she wants to remain the most introverted person she's ever met. She wants to be a hermit, cloistered. And we're saying, um, Cathee, something's gotta give there. She knows she'll have to let go of certain personality traits that she has held dear in order to move to a new place in her effectiveness in the world, as well as in her own spiritual growth.
Your life is a reflection of choices you make and personality traits and so forth, so it's logical that if you want to go to a really different place, you're going to have to have a different constellation of personality. Not always, but often.
The role of a spiritual teacher is to greet you in the new space as you arrive. We have a special gift in that we helped each of you come into form at your birth. We know you so very much, so closely. We don't see you as quite as "real" and unchanging as many people see themselves. On subtle levels, we are very aware of the void out of which you came into being. We're very aware of the forces, the meanings and the needs within the we that brought the whole we to a point of saying, "Well, you know, we need a Rachel in the soul family. She will balance things, and fulfill a certain flavor or color that we need." And so from our perspective, Rachel was created to fulfill that need. But then everything changes, and maybe we need a different flavor or tone to balance out and make the whole we as beautiful as it possibly could be. And we may draft Rachel to move into that.
You're all changing all the time. And normally people don't change too fast, but speed can be called upon. Before, we needed a certain number of people to come into this parallel reality and try to transform it. And now that need is not there so much.
You're all wonderful warriors of the light. All of you have had to learn certain character traits of how to cope with this society, and how to have integrity and be compassionate towards other people in it, and yet push it, push it, push it, in a certain direction towards a spiritual awakening. To transplant people that have been trying to hold a stability. . . .
Cathee: I see an image of being at the ocean, out up to our knees or thighs, and there's a big undertow as the waves come in and go out. We've been trying to hold a stability there.
Then we're saying we can leap you all of a sudden to somewhere where there isn't a big undertow, and you won't have to be the warrior. You won't have to dig in and say, "Despite anybody's criticism of me, I'm gonna do what I believe needs to be done, and be real strong." All of a sudden nobody's criticizing you, or the culture is actually in support of what you believe, and you suddenly don't feel like you have to effort so much just to find a job or survive a workday. Then with all that you've built into your subpersonality structure to be able to handle a survival parallel, really—one where you have to be kind of tough—what happens if you no longer need all the armor? Armor can be a very good thing when you need it. But how can we help you move to a more peaceful parallel without all that clanking armor coming with? It's heavy. It's awkward. You know, it was hard to go to the bathroom in armor in the Middle Ages, let alone hug somebody without being like two pots and pans clanging.
Who is it that we're leaping? Who is inside the whole conglomeration of subpersonalities and relationships that you have accumulated? Is there someone in there? Who is it that is choosing to leap? Much of who you are needs to be transformed to be able to show up in the new parallel, and implied in the word "transform" is the death of the old and the birth of the new.
We would never have the guts to offer to leap you were we not so intimately close to you, and have been your whole life. We've been in all the decisions that you've made along the way of which direction to go in your personality development and emotional life, and even your big decisions about moving or marrying someone or whatnot. We tremendously value being in a group like this where we can be honest and collectively choose what needs to happen next in our soul family. If we're choosing to no longer greatly inhabit this old parallel, what is needed? We value your opinions as equals in this process of "what is now needed?" It goes beyond what is needed. "How beautiful can we dream it?" Given where we are, with this lodge of old warriors who are now unemployed, where you've developed your warriorhood as much as you possibly could, and now . . . we don't need warriors. How beautiful can we dream our retirement, or our change of career?
We're sounding very abstract, but this is very real to us. Because part of "how beautiful can we dream it?" is, "how much death of the old can you tolerate?" especially when you may have tried very hard to learn the ways of the old society.
So much of who I am has developed in the midst of chaos, this self-destruction of a planet and of humanity. And trying to navigate through all of that is so much of who I am that I can't even imagine a me not in that mode of fighting against the grain. I wouldn't have a reference point for myself. I'd be completely lost.
There's another factor, too. We've talked at times about how this "virtual reality" culture is abstractly oriented, and how that's been an interesting development in the history of humanity. We sometimes see people thinking that they will leap to, or even in their spiritual growth get to, some kind of pure platonic place in the realm of essences, and won't have much form or context. But the leap is always going to be from one place to another. You will have new things to learn. You may go to a place where you don't need your warriorness, but you need new subtle understandings of what peace is about, and how to live that happily and not get bored. It's going to be leaping from something to something, not just like "heaven." We're amazed people think that after death you go to this "heaven," but nobody can tell us quite what that means. We're very interested in you still completing your lives in these bodies in form, and in form that is not abstract, that has actual flavors and personalities and life circumstances that will be intriguing and worth being in a certain amount of density for. We're not just going to beam you up to become a pure geometric shape.
If I'm trying to leap to a reality that's better for me, is there already a me, a parallel self, in that reality?
We see it as a new creation. Obviously there is no time, so you can look at that "future self."
What we're offering is quite remarkable, if we do say so ourselves. When people are born, there's usually some at least vague blueprint of a certain direction of learning and accomplishment, and a playing out of what you call karma—strands and patterns that come together in a life. They're often strands from other lives—personality traits, talents to develop, and so forth. When you're born, you're usually already headed in a certain direction. You can look ahead even to what astrological transits you'll be under, because the planets will be a certain way at the age of twenty-two when you'll be faced with a certain decision and you may want to go a certain way.
It's like the life of a plant. The seed lands in a unique location, and is subject to winds, rain, sun and the variations of climate from year to year. Yet there's a basic blueprint of growth, so that a daisy always comes from a daisy seed. You can predict that if it gets enough rain and sun, and if the soil is good, you'll end up with a daisy. That's organic growth. You all may have made especially big leaps already in your life, but a lot of people just manage to get through life following the organic blueprint, and don't come to huge changes in the plan of what they came in to do or be. And that's fine. They're like a flower that blooms and goes to seed and dies, and you can almost predict their lives. They may have been born in a small town, and they end up living out their cultural background with their own flair within what may have been expected of someone who grew up in that certain culture.
What we're suggesting is like saying we'll transplant a plant to a really different environment, and it may have to adapt quite a bit. When you take a sunflower from a lower altitude and put it up at high altitude, usually plants will grow a lot shorter because the growing season is so short, and they'll adapt in many ways. Usually this change happens over time, of course, not just in the lifetime of one plant. But there's an evolution to fit the environment, and a high altitude plant can sometimes look quite different than the same plant looks down at lower altitudes.
The person who is fitting the blueprint of their contract is quite predictable. It's very easy to look at their future selves, and even some of the parallel selves that they shoot off, because they're following the choices they knew they would make at a certain age. The relationships that they've already planned would come in at a certain time, and there would be certain themes. If you want to look at the future self of a person like that, you can easily find them. If someone were to come to a psychic like Cathee, we could come through and say, "Well, you'll probably live to the age of seventy-five, and you'll probably want to take this career opportunity because we can see that if you take the other career opportunity you'll end up less happy." We can look out on the strands quite easily if you're living the organic blueprint.
If you're willing to be transplanted, it's more like a gel. When we look at your future self, it's not that solid, because it's not in the continuity of the organic blueprint that you came in with. We've said you came in to be warriors of the light here. And if that's not going to play out, does your future self on the other parallel exist? It's the difference between probable realities and parallel realities. With the probable ones, we can kind of see what could happen, what could gel. But things don't really exist or not exist. We've talked before about things fading out, if there's not much energy to them. And so there may be a ghostlike parallel self that already exists on the new parallel, that's drawing you to it. It's a possibility, but it may not have much substance. It may not have much power to create its life around it, and to draw to it what it will need to have solid form. It's hard for us to put this into words.
It's like the difference between a dream and an experience while awake. You do all sorts of activities in your dream life, and those dream selves are very real. They're just as real as your self that is in a time/space matrix that's very dense and slow. The dream that just goes [snaps fingers] is on the astral level more, is on another dimension, but it's just as real. We think what you're asking, though, is about the continuation of your life after the leap—the parallel self—that does have a lot of substance and is in a time/space matrix that's not just wispy like a dream, ethereal. It's in pretty dense form. Embodied Earthly life is really what you came in to explore, and is the parallel you will end up on.
So we're saying, where do you want to be? Every time you think about, well, what would I like my future to be, you create one of these little wispy ethereal selves out there. It's a creation of your mind, a projection forward, but that thought has a life of its own. It's a being, in a way. You're mothering that being. You're giving birth to it. But it has its own point of view after you give birth to it. And it can then start to take on enough energy that it becomes solidified and becomes your parallel future. We're being extremely simplistic about this, and we're not real pleased with the way this is coming out. But it's very hard for us to talk in terms that you can relate to, so this is our attempt tonight.
Other parallel selves that you have split off in the past will still be very connected to you, especially when you think about them. We talk about the whole we moving like an amoeba, as one organism, in choosing what needs to happen next for the good of the whole to be played out by the many different selves within the we. Or like the selves within an organ—how do they need to conglomerate for a healthy organ? So you have your own little "we" in your parallel selves. And they all know intimately what's happening with the others on some level.
This is how nature works. All daisies know what's going on with all daisies right now. There's an inner connection. And so when you leap, that does greatly affect all your parallel selves. And when they leap, or have insights or problems, it affects you. In the dream state, many things are felt, communicated and worked out—future directions. So from one point of view, your decision to leap parallels into a very different type of life is likely the result of a group consensus among all your other parallel selves that this is what's needed. And so they're rooting for you. They're giving you energy.
If you find yourself at this particular crossroads saying "I'm thinking about doing this," who is the "I" that's thinking about doing this? That "I" is connected to all the "I's" that you are in this particular identity in this particular lifetime. None of you lives in isolation from the others. You're all constantly learning from each other as you collectively evolve.
For instance, the Cathee and Peter who didn't stay together learned a great deal that has been of service to Peter and Cathee in their relationship. They appreciate very much that they are together because they know at some level what would have happened if they hadn't stayed together. They've had the benefit of us telling them, "We recommend that you stay together because your parallel selves that didn't stay together aren't very happy right now." And it's kind of mind-boggling, because, like, how did you get to be the ones that stayed together, and not the ones that didn't? But that's what you are. We don't tend to tell them too much about the ones that actually seem happier right now [laughs] unless they want to know how to go in that direction.
Are we overloading you here? There's only so much your mind can understand. It really does have to be more of a gut, intuitive sense.
Certain parts of yourself probably survive the leap, right? So those that aren't growing too much here, for whatever reason, could possibly then be developed on the other version.
And it can be surprising. For instance, the warrior in you who has developed great strength in having to live in an environment that is not always supportive of anybody's growth and happiness in certain structures of society. That warrior may be able to use that strength to become a very nurturing person. We told you in an earlier channeling that you're very much wanted on other parallels because of this quality of tenacity to keep going even when things are not working out that great. So it may be that the warrior part of you does want the leap, and will be appreciated, but it'll have to morph to be able to use its gifts. It really is all of you together that are deciding to do this. It's not a huge competition between parts, generally. There may be some parts of you that need to morph or fade out that are resisting their death or their transformation, though.
Can the resistance of parts of ourselves that may need to die in order for the leap to take place manifest in physical problems?
It certainly can. Yes.
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