Cathee: Peter and I just finished a wonderful meal that he cooked. We were just talking about our feelings about leaping. And Jonathan jumped in and said, "Don't work yourself into fear." I appreciate that.
Jonathan: You can speculate about this to death. It's much better to ask me questions, ask me for a vision, you know, get into the fun of it rather than worry about, "What are we getting into?" Well, ask.
You're already drawing it to you. You're already leaping every time you think about it, every time you adjust your energy. Cathee feels like a space cadet. That's because you're halfway here. And so do think about it. Do wonder what it will be like.
I think at times you both have a tendency to worry that you're leaning on me too much. That you'll get here and I'll be your only friend, and I might not have time to just be with you. I think you shouldn't worry about that. There are a lot of loving people here. If I get busy, you'll already be fascinated with a lot of people, I think.
Also, we work a lot, but we do things with love. So it doesn't really seem like work, like you're used to. I think a lot of people will want to show you around and have you hang out with them, even if they're doing what they do for work. It's pretty informal compared to where you are, partly because our money is a little looser. Everybody wants high quality of life. Everybody takes time to say hi, kind of like Africans tend to do in your world. It's pretty easygoing.
I do think it makes a tremendous difference that we don't have the overpopulation you do. We still are thrilled with each other. (laughs)
Cathee: Peter just suggested that I ask the Leapers what I've accomplished in this lifetime. To sway my feeling that I haven't gotten anything done.
Leapers: You mean—can we rephrase it—what did the we accomplish by having Cathee be created?
Part of the problem with these questions, and getting ready to go, and working through these feelings, is that you're comparing this to Cathee's former work helping to bring foreigners over, and different times in your life when you've made big changes. And it's not like that, because you are more and more we and you're less and less an individual who has accomplishments. It's in the moment what needs to happen, and that's what you do. And then a new moment. It's not like a resumé really builds that much.
What we're saying is that when Cathee is very close to daisy, you could call that an accomplishment, and when you do an energy clearing, you could call that an accomplishment. But that's like calling your relationships with people you love accomplishments. It's really not that objective. So we think Cathee's experienced a lot, and participated in a lot. But we think even she'd say that when she's close to daisy, it's not like she's accomplishing that. It's an experience. In that moment, it's the deva of relationship between the two of them that really is the accomplishment. It's like, who's observing the accomplishment?
Peter: But you're capable of experiencing that. You've arrived at a place where you can experience that.
Cathee: But I was created to arrive at that place. It's not like I did it. That unfolded.
Leapers: And so, we have to trust that things will continue to unfold. And that you will end up where our richest and most joyful unfoldment can be, which is what we're asking for. You want to be a best-selling author, but we hope that's because you want to reach a lot of people. There would be a pride in that, but there's not really going to be a super sense of self there either. It's still going to seem dream-like and in the moment. This is what's happening.
The cause and effect thing is different now. But we think what she was fussing over last night was not so much a sense of failure like she thought, but probably a grief. We understand the grief at working on projects that never get finished. We understand there can be a grief in that, like a baby that's aborted, when you're geared towards having something done.
Cathee: Could the old parallel have been different if I had done my thing?
Leapers: Well, sure, everything always changes with whatever you do.
Life is not something that you're getting graded on. You spent too much time in school, Cathee, where you got graded on everything from when you were five to when you were twenty-four. That's nineteen years of getting graded, in your very impressionable years. You get graded, graded, graded—that's your worth. It's not the experience. It's study, study, study. It's not just let's have a good time and live. And that has stuck with you so strongly. How about your enjoyment? How about your fun? And your creativity, not just what you have to accomplish to get an A from us. We don't give out grades. So it's kind of a bizarre measurement—failure, success.
Peter: Does that mean Cathee can just drop the whole issue then?
Leapers: We think she should listen to her desires. If she really has her heart set on getting a book done before she goes, and we have been suggesting that she does that, do it! Just do it. Don't think about it. Get typing. And then you'll be in the experience of that. And the world probably won't blow up while you're writing it, because you'll create it not to. You'll create it to last. (laughs)
Jonathan: I hope you guys don't get bored here. We do some pretty fascinating things, like with the institute. And then we go home, and we do what you're doing right now. We just kind of lie around and rub on each other, and we consider both of those activities equally important. It's just life. You've got to have a personal life if you're going to have an out there professional life. To us, it's about love, and exploration. We don't have the concept I think you guys do that work should be not as much fun as sitting around like this. We think it's all life. It's all fun.
So maybe I'm not sensitive to what you need, Cathee. 'Cause we're not really looking for you to accomplish a whole lot. We'll have plenty for you to do. I mean, there are lots of toilets to clean, and you're good at that. (laughs) We do have toilets. They're a lot more efficient than yours, but we do have them.
I tend to question whether either of you have ever in your life really felt loved. Just felt loved, you know, not earning the A, but just felt loved. I don't know if you have. So that might be a little overwhelming if it happens here. (laughs)
I'm really thrilled you're both coming. And I want you to keep focussing on it so you do make it here. I really want you here. I feel a lot of love for you. And to me, that's enough. You're unique people in the universe whether you're jumping parallels or not. Everybody's unique and worthy of love. Let's get to know each other, and hang out. I just hope you're not overwhelmed by the love here. Or bored by it. You know, if you really feel like you need to accomplish something, then you might miss out on just hanging out and loving.
But we do get a little accomplishment-oriented when it comes to not having your parallel suck the whole universe into a black hole. We feel pretty serious about that. But isn't the way to do that . . . in the channeling about the holographic terror, the Leapers said what you do is just jump and find joy and send that joy back. That makes total sense to me. That's how we prevent this from happening, is help those folks down on the other parallel Earth to remember what love is, what joy is. That they belong to the bigger universe.
It seems so unnatural to me that people on your parallel don't feel loved. It just seems tragic. Really tragic. At least some people don't. Some people do. And I don't really know if you guys are more on the feeling loved part of the scale, or the feeling less loved part of the scale than most people on your parallel.
But Cathee was reading statistics today about how many people commit suicide each year on your parallel. It's amazing. Or contemplate it, even. That doesn't happen here. In fact, I think people would be really embarrassed to commit suicide here, or to let people know they even thought about it. Everyone would take that as a personal affront, that we hadn't loved them enough or something I guess. I don't know anybody who's committed suicide here. I've never even heard of anybody committing suicide here. There may be like people who fall off a cliff, and rather than face life with two million broken bones, they decide to just lie there and not ask for help. Something like that may happen, if it looks like the quality of life is going to be really bad because of physical ailments. But not just because they don't feel loved, or that they don't belong, or financial problems or something. If you have financial problems here, you just say, "I need some money" and everybody will give it to you. Why wouldn't they give it to you? Like, what do you need it for? That's the question. Everybody would say, "Oh, do you have some interesting project going that you need money for?" (laughs) "Maybe I want to be a part of it." It's not an issue.
So it's a different mindset. I think it's kind of interesting what Cathee went through last night. Cathee, I wonder if the biggest part of that was just your constant feeling that nobody will interested in what you're doing if you do write a book. You haven't been able to push through that sense of alienation, that sense of competition, that sense of being not good enough—whatever it is. That's what's sad. What's sad is not that you haven't written a book. What's sad is that you live in a parallel where you're so alienated from other people, and from your own sense that everybody has something to offer. How could you and they not? It may take some drawing out from your imbibing in alienation. It may take awhile to feel loved, and let yourself trust it. I just can't imagine you not liking it here, really.
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